2007 November | chatting at the sky

love at first sip

November 26, 2007

It was December of 2002. We met in a Starbucks in NYC, the city that never sleeps. (Perhaps because of you…?) I didn’t expect you would have such an affect on me. But now, I find myself looking for you after every Halloween…anticipating your return.

You are chocolate. You are coffee. You are peppermint. You are a cup of Christmas; a walk through an evergreen forest; a rich, minty reminder that life is good. In the midst of a hectic shopping experience, one sip of you and…clarity. Other drinks aspire to be like you because you are perfect.

You are also nearly half of my recommended daily caloric intake.

This has been an unfortunate discovery.

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as requested

November 24, 2007

Here is the new cut. This photo was taken today by our awesome friend Alisa. Just so you know, the long part in the front was originally a lot longer. I made her cut more off. The back is pretty short. I know I don’t look too bothered here…that is because the man is standing in front of me just out of the shot. And he makes me happy.

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a bit of a rant

November 24, 2007

Dear Girl Who Cut My Hair For The First Time Today,

I gave you the benefit of the doubt when you sprayed me in the face with the hair wash thing…it happens, I suppose. And the mermaid that was tattood on your arm didn’t even phase me. But when I specifically said that I part my hair on the left, I did not secretly mean I part it on the right. And when I told you I don’t like long layers in the front, I did not secretly mean I really wanted long layers in the front.

And, while I’m at it, my husband is a youth pastor. It is his full time job. He doesn’t just do it on Sundays. It is not a hobby. It is not a leisure past-time. He does not work at a high school as a teacher during the week. He gets paid to be a youth pastor. Full time. Yes, it is his only job.

Maybe you were having a bad day. I understand that. Maybe you just broke up with your boyfriend or your cat ran away or your mom has cancer or you had a sprained ankle or I look like the girl you hated in high school. I know any one of those things could be true. My heart understands that. But my hair does not. That is why I won’t be seeing you again.

Emily
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Dear Girl Who Has Cut My Hair For The Past Five Years (aka Kelly),

I miss you. I am sorry I couldn’t be patient and wait til you had an opening in December. I will wait next time. You are worth it. You are wonderful and worth it and I love you.

Emily

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’cause you got personality

November 19, 2007

I recently took a test to see what my personality is. That’s right, I just don’t know…I can’t decide. I need a test to tell me. One of the questions was if I am sometimes accused of being too indecisive or too rigid. And I vacillated…hmmm, I don’t know. I guess it depends on the situation. Well, then again….Then I grew a brain and clicked yes, I am sometimes accused of being too indecisive.

Another question asked if I feel comfortable leaving my options open or after having made a decision. Um, are you kidding me? You mean there are people who would actually rather leave their options open than make a decision? Because I know I took a long time to decide whether or not I was indecisive, but I sure felt better after having made the decision. A lot better. Maybe that’s why I worry so much about making decisions sometimes…because it HAS to be made or I can’t rest.

Perhaps the most difficult question: I am mainly interested in human relationships or in things other than human relationships. I automatically clicked human relationships. And my test results reflect that. Lately, though, I have been wondering…which am I: people-oriented or task-oriented? In my head I’m people-oriented. But in my reality, I tend to focus on the tasks of the day rather than the (little) people by whom I am (constantly) surrounded. I don’t know if its a coping mechanism or a personality trait, but sometimes I would rather windex the bathroom mirror than sit and chat with my 3 year olds. Then again, maybe it would say more about me if I actually windexed the entire mirror. But when I start to windex, I see the toilet needs to be cleaned, and the floor, and…then none of it is done completely, but all of it has been started. I think genuinely task-oriented people are organized and methodical and never leave a job undone. And that is not me.

I suppose I’m neither task-oriented nor people-oriented. I’m just dis-oriented. And I guess that is ok with me (I think…) Enough about me…what about you?

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a moment

November 17, 2007

I love to watch her loosen up…even better when I have a camera handy.

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wake me up before you go-go

November 17, 2007

I apologize in advance for the song that is now inevitably running through your head from the title quote. At first you might be thinking “oh yea! what a great song…” Trust me when I say by the time you finish this post, you will already be sick of it…especially when you realize those are the only words you remember.

So it is 4 am. I don’t like being awake at this hour. But one of my children comes into our bedroom nearly every night these days and this time, I can’t get back to sleep. She likes to snuggle. I guess I don’t give her enough attention during the day or something so in order to get her needs met, she comes in the night. And it is getting very old. Although I think she may be nighttime potty training herself, which could be a perk of these disruptions.

She has been potty trained during the day for quite a while but she still wears pull-ups at night. Tonight during her usual nighttime sojourn, she told me she needed to go. So she got up from the bed and headed to the bathroom. I noticed her pull-up was dry which meant she hadn’t gone until now (I know, obvious right? Give me a break, it’s 4 am).

Her twin has not come quite so far and, for those of you who know me well, you know that the almost 4 year old who still refuses to number 2 in the potty has taken me to places I’d rather not go. I am open to any suggestions. But please don’t be offended if I roll my eyes and say “HAHAHA” really loud and sarcastic like because we’ve. already. tried. that. As well as every possible version of that. But I will make an attempt to be gracious toward you for your considerations.

I hope it has worn off for you and that you have forgotten the tune by now. If you are like me, however, it may help to check this out simply to have words to go along with this terribly annoying melody. And if you were not yet born in 1984 or at least not old enough to know this song, please enjoy the peace and quiet that is in your head.

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home

November 16, 2007

When my grandmother died, I remember my dad kept her old, worn out sneakers. Even as a young girl, I never questioned why he would do that. Looking at those shoes, even I saw her. They represented something to him, something more than what they were. I saw it, too. I suppose I come by it honestly…this habit of attaching sentimental importance to objects with no intrinsic value.

In my recent visits to my parents house, I have found myself looking around nostalgically, discovering with new eyes those things that capture memories for me…ordinary objects holding extraordinary worth.

It’s the silver pot with black handles and copper bottom that she cooks the potatoes in. It is the upright piano they surprised me with in the 4th grade because my teacher told them that my octave and a half keyboard (that I could easily tuck under my arm) was too small.
It is my dad’s brown office crammed full with inspired ideas and good intentions…with the rows of presidential biographies and stacks of un-hung picture frames lining the walls. It’s the way her towels smell straight from the dryer. It’s the white pillow cases with pink flowers. It’s the VCR that is 20 years old and, while it still works, is always flashing a digital, green 12:00 because Mom isn’t quite sure how to set it. And the smell of Pine-sol, Comet and lemon fresh Dawn will forever remind me of her and home and, for reasons I can’t explain, peace.

And so I wonder what will it be for my children? What memories are they even now attaching to the stuff of our house and the cleaning products I choose to use?

There is a tree that stands tall in our front yard. In the summer, it nearly hides the house from the street and I have threatened more than once to have it removed. But it is a beautiful tree, especially this time of year. Here is a glimpse of it’s yellowing leaves as seen through their bedroom window.Will this tree be a memory for them? Maybe. It would be great if it were the apron I wore while making cookies every afternoon or the Bible on my bedside table. I’m sure not…certainly it will be something more like the piles of laundry they had to step over every time they came into my bedroom. Regardless of what will come to represent home to them, the most important thing to me is that they know that they have a place where they belong.

Even if the thing that reminds them of that is a pair of my old, worn out sneakers.

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