love and faithfulness | an introduction

I wake in the dark with a head full of pain. It is good to give thanks to the Lord. It doesn’t feel good, but I know it is good, and so we rise up, we meet at our K-mart table, we join hands to sing praises to your name, O Most High. We don’t actually sing, but maybe that’s what it sounds like to Him. Who am I to say.

The kids join us in the kitchen, I lay out the clothes, make the lunch sandwiches, calm the bickering at the breakfast table, drink the coffee–hot if you’re lucky. And I catch a glimpse of the morning sun through my laundry room window and the rest of those holy words come to mind - to declare your steadfast love in the morning and your faithfulness by night.

And I consider the significance of declaring His love in the morning and His faithfulness by night. Love in the morning, to remember through the gray and yellow flurries of the day, to holdfast in the midst of the homework whine, the dinner grind, the mail and the dishes and the living.

And then in the night when the house heaves a heavy sigh of another day done, the dishwasher hums from the kitchen, and The Man and I settle into our evening routine, the words rise up from my invisible insides — and your faithfulness by night — to receive the gifts to be found in the day that has just been lived for the first and last time, to notice the ways he has provided again, and to remember to say thank you.

This week, as we approach the celebration of the resurrected Christ, I want to take some time to embrace his love in the morning and his faithfulness by night as I post a morning and an evening photo with just a few words to stand alongside. Join me if you like on your own Love & Faithfulness journey.

“It is good to give thanks to the Lord, to sing praises to your name, O Most High; to declare your steadfast love in the morning and your faithfulness by night.”

Psalm 92:1-2

things to chat about

So That You May Sing With Us @ We are THAT family :: Even though it’s impossible to truly see the world through someone else’s eyes, reading this post from Kristen makes it seem a little more possible. She carries the burden of knowing, and with it, love.

31 Days to Clean @ Like a Warm Cup of Coffee :: I haven’t read this e-book yet, but the cover alone makes me want to. Sarah Mae is the woman behind it, and I have a feeling I’m gonna like it.

Draw Your Story @ Alpha Mom (by Small Notebook) :: This post was written a month ago (10 years blog time), but I just found it and love. it. I’ve already bought a journal for my family and I drew the first page. It was ridiculous, but fun. Yours will be much cooler than mine.

The Great Romance @ (in)courage (by Tsh Oxenreider) :: Beautiful post of how Simple Mom (Tsh) met her husband, Kyle. Amazing.

Next week at Chatting at the Sky :: My babies are off school next week, but instead of taking the week off from writing the blog altogether, I’m trying my hand at a simple, bare-necessities, week-long series and I hope you’ll come back to breathe in slow and deep. I know I need it. Enjoy the weekend, friends.

five minute friday

Ever since Lisa-Jo started this little series, I’ve been daring myself to take part in it. She invites us to set the clock for 5 minutes and “just write and not worry if it’s just right.” This weeks prompt is On Distance.

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A tree fell in our neighbors yard last week. The storm came unexpectedly, at least to me. It was 3 am when the kids woke us up, and even The Man whispered to me Let’s go downstairs. He sleeps through storms, never takes cover.

So the next morning when the sun came out and we walked outside to see what damage had been done, we saw the tree lay long across the cul-de-sac. And I remembered my thing for trees. They have seen so much, so many families living here, so many stories lived out beneath them. They hold within them secrets of community life, people who live so close to one another, yet so far from connection.

I love to see names carved in a tree. It’s probably bad for the tree, but it’s good for my soul: these people were here, so many years ago. Far away in time, but right here where my hand touches.

My sister and I spent years of our childhood on a tree beside our grandmothers house in southern Indiana. We loved that tree, that house. We loved to hang and sit from it’s branches and make soup from it’s berries. But that was a long time ago.

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Are you a writer in need of a jump start? Join us a Lisa-Jo’s place this morning. Dare yourself to write in freedom without worry about the outcome. It might do your heart a world of good.

how to make the art

It’s 7:45 at night and I eat Raisin Bran out of an over-sized bowl. Dinner for one. The house is quiet except for the rain, and I tap out the rest of chapter 7 just as the cloud cover begins to lift. The trees are black against a barely lit sky, and I consider how fast time flies when you’re making art. Ideas are showing up like bouquets out of baskets; colorful, happy, surprising ideas. And they tip their hats and curtsy their skirts and greet me like kind, new friends waiting to come alive in my company. They are delighted by my attention.

It’s time to stop, finished or not. This time, I meet my personal deadline for the day. I gather up the laundry, fold it in front of Pride & Prejudice (the Keira Knightly version, but still good company). I settle in to the warm couch, content to be alone with my pillows and my thoughts. I think about my word count today: I am now up to 31,000 words on my second manuscript. That feels like a milestone, more so than 10 or 20. I am pleased with the direction. I eat ice cream and grin.

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I chase three Advil down with cold coffee. It’s a writing day, but the Muse doesn’t know it. She packed up her sparkly bags last Thursday and headed off to Tuscany, stuffing all of my passion and heart into those zipped up bags, tucking away my good ideas deep into her purse. But I’m a professional, and I no longer wait for a Muse to return from her long vacation. Instead, I sit in my chair, face the day, fight the pull of the internet and the dust on the baseboards. And I work. I type out 57 words and they are all ridiculous. For a moment I fear death, because I have written these words and someone may find them when I’m gone and think I was serious. Erase them, and fast! But I don’t, because then I will have nothing to show for the work. And today, the work is more important than my pride.

The phone rings. I get an email from my publisher. I remember my seven year old has no clean underwear. The dog barks incessantly. I have until 1 pm to work, time cut out and planned for writing. I look at the clock, I will write for the next 30 minutes no matter what. And I do, and it’s terrible. Laughable. Embarrassing. I begin to type I have nothing more to say just to see the word count go up. I know I’ll have to start over. I feel discouraged. Cry a little. Keep on writing. Check my email. Wash the dishes. Look at the oven. Think about dinner. Cry again. I fail to meet my personal deadline for the day. But it’s time to stop, finished or not. I pray for the Lord to redeem the time. I believe that he can, I have doubts that he will. But then I remember that he’s done it before. No day of writing is wasted, even a bad one.

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And that is how it goes, from one writing day to the next. The only predictable thing about a day of writing is that work always has to get done. That is the constant. Everything else will change. And so you have to make your own constants. Show up. Stay there. Work hard. Believe truth. Resist criticism. Embrace today. Surrender yourself to a relentless pursuit of the art.

Repeat.

to carry their burdens

Richella and I initially met because of blogging, but have quickly become real life friends. She lives only an hour away. We met once for coffee. She brought me bread she made with her own hands and overflowed with words of encouragement that came from her dear heart. She has been a sweet voice of truth in my life. She speaks with passion, conviction, and grace. When I have been most afraid of this creative life, she has carried some of the burden and believed on my behalf.
Today, her husband Jack is having open heart surgery. The surgery begins at 7 am EST and will go for 6-8 hours. Would you be willing to pray for Richella and Jack and their 3 boys? If so, click over to her blog and tell her so. I’m closing comments on this post – so if you have a moment, would you be willing to carry just a small bit of their burden today and believe with me on their behalf? I know it would mean so much to her.

4pm Update: Jack is out of surgery and all went well! Thank you all for how you so richly blessed this family today. Please keep them in mind as they have a road of recovery ahead.

the work of art

Annie finished off an email she sent me on January 1st of this year with these 5 words: “2011. We will make art.” I shared those words with you back in January, thinking that one post would be all there was to say about it. But then the art started seeping in from every crack in the wall, from every eye and hand I daily encountered, from every prayer and tree and common meal.

And much like Tuesdays Unwrapped opened my eyes to the hidden gifts in the daily minute, Annie’s email has opened my eyes to the art in the living. It is literally everywhere I look. Sometimes I share what I see here, and sometimes it’s just too much to put into words.

But even in all this talk about art, there have been some heavy and most difficult days. I would never want to give the impression that art is effortless. While seeing the art has been somewhat easy as of late, creating the art has not been. Living the art is one thing, making it has been entirely another.

I have finished one book to be released in September. But I am still working on it, waiting to receive the page proofs so that I can sign off and hand it over with one final period. Even though you can go to Amazon and see it there with it’s cover and it’s finished-looking self, I am still working on it, after a two years.

Meanwhile, I’m half-way through book 2, a book for high school girls similar to Grace for the Good Girl, but unique in style and form and voice. It is due the day book 1 releases. And a year from now, I’ll still be working on it — edits, re-writing, more editing, more re-writing.

Some days I feel like the most blessed girl in the world, the girl who gets to do what she’s always wanted to do and didn’t even know it, the girl who has everything like the humans in The Little Mermaid. But other days? I think I might collapse from the pressure of it all. I signed up for this, I know. But it’s a lot of work, and I think I’m beginning to feel the weight of writing two books back to back.

I’m training myself to be thankful for the deadlines, because the deadlines mean work, and the work means I’m writing, and writing is my art. Still, making art requires discipline, sacrifice, and white-knuckled resolve. And that is any kind of art, not just writing. You have to believe it’s worth it. You have to keep the big picture in mind. You have to know that you love it, that it’s your message, that it’s where your heart beats. If you wonder if you’re doing it for the wrong reasons, stop wondering and start working. The work will smoke the motives right out and you’ll know if this is right for you from whatever is left over.

“The book eventually sold about 360,000 copies. It was an incredible outcome for a book that almost didn’t get published. If I had known how much work the publishing process would require—both in writing the manuscript and in promoting the book—I am sure I would not have signed up.”

Michael Hyatt, CEO of Thomas Nelson Publishers

To read more of Michael Hyatt’s perspective on making art through pursuing traditional publishing, check out his recent posts: Why Real Creativity Requires Significant Work :: Part 1 and Part 2.

things to chat about

Once you start looking at life as art, you can’t see anything else. Do you want to look at the world through an artists eyes? These women can get you started.

Looking Round, Feeling Light @ The Run a Muck :: She is expecting her fourth boy, and she writes of the daily grind as if it were happening in the alleyways of Heaven. Maybe my favorite post she’s ever written.

Pops of Color @ Nesting Place :: She makes a house home with an effortless flourish of color. She is an artist in every sense of the word.

Enjoy the Show @ A La Mode :: She takes her lead from the tulips, and chooses to hold her head high.

In Search for Compelling Goals @ Small Notebook :: She stopped calling them dreams and started calling them goals. The post is a week or so old, but I’m just now seeing it. Worth. The. Read.

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