a new kind of listening on the last day of hush

The coffee is ready, I gather my books and duck out the back door into the dark of the morning. Staring into the early sky, a project from grade school comes to mind. Black construction paper stretches over a light source. Small hands take turns poking holes with a sharp yellow pencil.

I pause on my way to the small building behind our house, get lost for a moment in the black paper sky boasting a handful of poked out wonder, the tiniest dots of twinkling white made with a sharp point from the other side.

I imagine God holding a giant pencil. Number 2.

The screen door creeks as I open it and walk into our make-shift study, turn on the heat, light a candle. We call it The Man Room, but today it’s a sanctuary. Quietness sings praises and still hands are my sacrifice.

Today is the last day of hush.

But not really.

I’m only beginning to practice the fine art of listening, not just while I’m alone in the presence of God but while I sit among friends and family. I’ve always considered myself a fairly attentive listener. This month I haven’t been able to hide from my dysfunction.

As it turns out, my listening tends to center around me, my own needs, what I might have to gain in the hearing or what I am able to offer that will be helpful or well-received. Realizing this is uncomfortable.

But comfort is highly overrated.

Repentance is freedom. I’m turning from that kind of listening. It is a slow, painful turn but there is hope in this circling. Not just a hope for me, but for us, the community. The church.

These 31 days are left unfinished. I feel like we’ve only begun to turn the key. This morning, I’m at peace with that.

I’ll end this series without fanfare today, but come back tomorrow (or maybe the next day?) where I plan to host a giveaway of some of the books I’ve been sitting with during the series. I hope to see you then. Let’s continue the journey together.

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  1. says

    thank you for your series, emily. i’ve been talking with my children about listening lately. :) and you have reminded me in this space that the lesson i want them to learn is also for me. taking what you’ve said here to heart. thank you.
    Kimber-Leigh´s last blog post ..Day 31 of 31: Home

  2. says

    One question, about “my listening tends to center around me, my own needs, what I might have to gain in the hearing or what I am able to offer that will be helpful or well-received” – what’s the alternative, friend? I mean, I understand that logically it might be listening for the sake of others, but what does that mean, exactly? How does it work?

    Your writing makes my heart happy :)
    sonika´s last blog post ..Come back

    • says

      Good question –

      the alternative is to listen with the other person in mind – to be honestly curious, to join them where they are, to be with them – rather than relating what they are saying to my own life and trying to come up with something that will “help” them in the midst of their struggle. It may mean being comfortable with silence, being willing to not say anything at all.

      It’s harder than it sounds. Or so I’m learning.
      emily freeman´s last blog post ..a new kind of listening on the last day of hush

      • says

        Gotcha, loud ‘n’ clear. I do love learning from you. Perhaps you’ll post updates on how these efforts are coming along, if it ever becomes pertinent…
        sonika´s last blog post ..Safe

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